The title of this blog post might seem outrageous to some of you, but hang in there with me. I think you might be on board by the time you finish reading it. I had said I was going to publish this right after the last full moon, the Thunder Moon, but somehow it needed a little more time to cook, and I’ve learned to respect that.
The reason I decided to write this was because during that period before, during and right after the full moon, so many people were talking about these amazing energy shifts they experienced. I was one of those people. I had an incredible shift that seemingly came out of nowhere but of course it didn’t. A very painful old issue came up into my consciousness, I clearly had the intention to heal this much more deeply, and with that strong intention and a very heartfelt, emotionally charged and tearful conversation with my husband on a Saturday morning, the energy shifted…BAM! Done.
I kept checking in with myself to see if it was really shifted, and yes indeed it was. My ego had shut the hell up about what I had been holding onto, and that in and of itself amazed me because I had been having these….you know those conversations in your own head….yeah, those. And they had stopped. Just stopped. I was peaceful about the issue. Which was totally amazing to me.
Other people I talked to had similar experiences. For some it “seemed” to take more effort, or more time, and releasing resistance, but ultimately the shift happened.
Something to know about healing is that it very often doesn’t take a lot of work, which flies in the face of conventional thinking which sets up all kinds of parameters and rules and steps that we’re supposed to take if we want to access healing. What good news for us! Healing isn’t something that we have to go chasing after…it exists inside of us all the time. All we have to do is decide to align with it, and yes, that usually means getting ego to shut the hell up about it.
Don’t get me wrong, I understand that ego’s supreme purpose is to preserve and protect us, but much of the time ego does that by serving up fear-based thoughts and beliefs and imagined scenarios that tend to back us into a corner, a corner that looks suspiciously like conventional thinking. And that’s not where healing lives. Healing lives around the corner, on the same street as miracles.
Yes, healing lives in the place where you absolutely claim how scared shitless you are, how devastatingly heartbroken you are, how “totally confused at the end of your rope and you absolutely don’t know what the hell to do next to fix this” you are. You see, healing is human. And those are some very human experiences. When we can claim those experiences, and allow ourselves to feel and express them without resistance, very often we find healing in the next breath.
There are so many levels that lead up to instantaneous healing, and if you’ve heard me talk about the ever-ascending spiral path then you know that’s what I mean. It seems to go on forever, this “working on the issues”, and we think that we’re not gaining any ground. But the fact is that every time we cycle through the issue again, we’re approaching it from a higher level of consciousness than we did the last time, and around and around and around we go, higher and higher, and paradoxically, deeper and deeper, until finally we stop and notice that healing is right where we are.
That’s the crazy thing about healing, it’s right where we are, right here, right now. Because we’re used to being so rational and linear in our thinking, it confounds us by not being what we thought it would be. We have ideas, mainly stemming from ego and left brain about what we want healing to look like. So most of the time, it stuns us by being so different from what we thought it would be, kind of like when we talk to somebody on the telephone a million times and then we meet in person and they don’t look anything like we thought they would. Kind of like that. Sometimes I think it’s kind of a practical joke Spirit plays on us. You know, “Gotcha!”, accompanied by a big belly laugh!
In any case, all healing is instantaneous because it happens in that very moment that we become aware and acknowledge it, even if we have to shake our head and rub our eyes in disbelief for a minute in order to accept that yes, this is really healing, in fact, this is healed. Already healed.
So for all of you who went through something distressing and painful during Mercury retrograde, or the full moon, or your dark night of the soul, or some other crazyhard challenge that life served up, I’m betting that you know, and can describe to a T, the moment that you realized that healing had happened. And you knew it had been instantaneous, because from one human moment to the next, everything changed.
And again, it didn’t look like you thought it would. Maybe what it looked like was you just stopped tolerating shit. All of a sudden, just like that. Maybe you realized that healing wasn’t recovering from the disease, but recovering from not being yourself. Or maybe it WAS recovering from the disease. Maybe healing didn’t mean the improvement of relationship, but the parting of ways (which of course improves it). Maybe healing was the moment that you realized that it was absolutely okay for you to love yourself, just the way you are, no conditions. Maybe healing was suddenly sinking into the okayness of ‘it is what it is’ without resistance. Maybe all of the blame and resentment you had built up against someone suddenly evaporated, and Peace filled your heart. Maybe healing is what came in that moment after you shook your fist at God while yelling WTF??? When we ask for healing, most of the time things get turned upside-down on their heads and end up confusing the hell out of us for a moment… Because no, healing doesn’t look like we thought it would.
The great thing about us humans is our optimism, our hopefulness, our tenacity and persistence when healing is what we want. We don’t give up. No!! In fact, we hear ourselves repeating that fabulous INDY Women’s mantra: I’M. NOT. DONE. YET! And eventually we get our answer in the form of healing, in an instant.
Don’t think you won’t recognize it, because you absolutely will. Again, it might take you a minute, because it’ll probably take you by surprise at how easy it was, and what it actually consists of, but you will absolutely know, THIS IS MY HEALING. I am HEALED from that “whatever it was” that plagued me for so fucking long. And it’s not at all what I thought it would be.
I want to hear your healed stories, I want to hear about your instantaneous healing, I want to hear how happy your soul was when you acknowledged the ALREADY nature of healing. If you know what I mean…and I’m sure that you do.
I love you.
Janice Masters, The Shaman Mama <3
Soul Seer | Empathic Healer | Spiritual Linguist | Nurturer of Women’s Dreams
© Janice Masters 2014
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