WHAT TO DO WITH THE PAINFUL, GIVE IT ALL TO ME
This week, I have ‘caught a bug’ that makes me feel tired, and makes my face feel like I’ve been in a prize fight, very painful. My sinuses are all inflamed and hurting. Yes, I am feeling ‘beat up’ right now. I could relate it back to a prior experience, or chalk it up to Mercury Retrograde, or literally ‘just a bug I caught’, but it feels deeper than this. I tend to go way deeper than that. That’s who I am. With me so far? Given the current collective climate and experience we are in together, I’m guessing you are with me…
Yesterday in deep meditation, spontaneously I began to see my grandparents and all the ones before them down the line, ones I never even knew in real life. I was shown their painful stories like a movie, some of which I consciously had known about and others that were new revelations to me. And the powerful and stunning download from Spirit that accompanied this ‘movie’ was that “all fear within the lineage is being dissolved, never more to be shared through DNA, energetics, or stories”.
I believe this ‘bug I caught’, through its manifestation of the physical symptoms I am experiencing, is assisting in the release of millions of ancestral unshed tears. I am the vessel for that release right now. I won’t lie, it is a painful process. But not one I cannot handle. Not one I don’t know what to do with. You dig?
I have often said that those of us who are Lightworkers came to do the painful work of processing, metabolizing, and releasing painful emotional energy for those who don’t have the stomach, the constitution, and are too locked up and fearful to do it for themselves. This current revelation may lead to a new experience for many others to be free of fear and do this healing work for themselves. And if not, then they have already been assisted in that healing.
In any case I am grateful to be a person who takes the deep dive, follows the intuitive nudges, invites the soul growth, and can use the pain to actually heal myself and others.
If you have read this far then I can safely assume that you are ‘one of us’ too. Bless you for your willingness to carry this compassionate task for the healing of all humankind.
All of this reminds me right now of a beautiful folk song my friends and I loved to sing decades ago. It’s called “Pack Up Your Sorrows” and was sung by Mimi and Richard Farina. You can listen to it with this link.
Here are the lyrics. See if you relate.
“No use in cryin’, talking to a stranger
Namin’ the sorrows you’ve seen
Too many bad times, too many sad times
Nobody knows what you mean
But if somehow you could pack up your sorrows
And give them all to me
You would lose them, I know how to use them
Give them all to me
No use ramblin’, walkin’ in the shadows
Trailin’ a wanderin’ star
No one beside you, no one to hide you
An’ nobody knows what you are
But if somehow you could pack up your sorrows
And give them all to me
You would lose them, I know how to use them
Give them all to me
No use roamin’, goin’ by the roadside
Seekin’ a satisfied mind
Too many highways, too many byways
An’ nobody’s walkin’ behind
But if somehow you could pack up your sorrows
And give them all to me
You would lose them, I know how to use them
Give them all to me”
I would love to know what you think, so please Comment.
I love you.
As always, I hope you SPARKLE!
Jan XO
Janice Masters, M.Ed., The Shaman Mama
Art: Millions of Tears, by Sarah Stokes
Yes.
I realized many years ago that I wouldn’t be having children in this configuration, and part of the reason was that I carry within me a deep, dark, painful family lineage that no longer needed to be passed on, nor did I want to risk continue perpetrating it from within myself in all the ways I was still blind to it. This experience is NOT a place for children–even though I myself had to navigate it as a dewy new one and it was that very fire that primed and cracked the seed.
Coupled with the reality that I feel so achingly deeply, I know I am part of the alchemy that will transmute this legacy. When it gets hard or I fall into ancient despairs, I remind myself that I came here for this; I volunteered for this; and I have the strength, willingness, and grace required to see it through on behalf of all those who couldn’t or didn’t know to.
Jon, your awareness and your tenderness around this issue moves me deeply. Yes, the pain ‘primed and cracked the seed’ as you say. The reminder that we signed up for this, and are capable of carrying it, is poignant and precious. You are among giants, Jon, with the strength, willingness and grace to see it through for others. I am blessed to stand with such as you, my friend.
reading these comments of advanced souls I hope that Janice course will heal something inside me
I don’t even know what it is. Even though my life was one venture after another and I paid a huge price, I give thanks for it every night. My dreams must be dark and painful because of waking up with the feeling of lived through something unpleasant. I wrote a book with a bleeding heart: the most important time of my life (true in every detail) that should have changed me forever: a love story about heaven and hell during wartime:
“I live it again having a dream so real that I ask myself if I died and a long gone episode of my life is mirrored to me during my transition. I pinch my arm. Yes, I feel it, I must be alive. I gaze into the darkness of my room. Into my open window blows the cool air of Florida’s autumn wind. I am still in another world, a world where time stands still, and I feel that time cannot wipe out what destiny has imprinted.”
That was the creation of “When Time Stood Still” I so desperately want to market and feel a hindrance
and, for the first time, I feel old.
I am aware that Janice had to stand on my path and I am excited to listen to part two.
Giselle
Giselle, I can feel the passion you brought and still bring to the project you refer to, “When Time Stood Still”. I love that you are excited to listen to Class 2 of Sacred Self Care for HPS’s & Empaths. Keep me posted on how it goes. Much love.
Aa usual this complete email is timely and true. You always seem to hit the nail on the head. From anxiety to the slow down, I am in it. I couldn’t understand all that was going on till you shined the light on it’s! I also need to leave my past behind. It was a great fun, happy and adventure filled life. So so different from my life since I got sick and disabled. No matter what I do from prayer to manifestation. I cannot regain any desires that make life so wonderful.
In light and love, thank you, Pati
Pati, I’m so glad that this was timely for you. And I want to remind you of something you probably already know. There’s a brilliant little book called Who Moved My Cheese, and it sounds like that might be a good description of where you are right now. If you can’t get back that feeling to make life so wonderful again, then you have evolved. Maybe just consider this possibility, check out that little book and let me know if it speaks to you. Thank you for letting me know that email shined some light! Best, Jan